Tangibility and God’s Peace

You know all these memes, quotes and funny jokes people are constantly sharing on social media? Well, I love most of them! Sometimes one of those messages can brighten up your mood instantly and sending it to your friends and family is half the fun! I remember the time I sent one of these memes to my cousin Keisha (Yes, I think I will write about her A LOT!). I sent her this:

She laughed and told me: Omgggggg te tengo que contar something similar que me pasó babyyyy {omgggggg baby I have to tell you about something similar that happened to me}

She then proceeded to record a voice message of 4 minutes and 18 seconds long in which she described to me a very tangible experience she recently had with God. I wish I can share more details with you, but for now I will say that it was real and she was ecstatic about it.

I was instantly jealous. But the good kind. I even told her and she laughed, of course. You see, I have always wanted to experience moments like that with God and I felt that I was doing something wrong in my life that God was not choosing me to talk to me the way he did with her. This is not true. And I learned this over the span of several months.

Last year was a very hard year for me. I had been working at the University of Puerto Rico at Cayey for many years and in 2017 due to different reasons I decided to resign from my job and move in back with my parents. From the moment I made that decision my life completely changed. I experienced a spiritual awakening and my relationship with God grew greatly. During that time I longed for tangible experiences with God. This might seem silly or unreal, but I wanted that. I actually wanted to see God.

As I thought about what to write for this post, I began to remember my experiences during 2017. That took me back to that time when Keisha told me her story. Even though I have yet to experience that type of tangibility, I know this: God’s presence has been tangible in my life. God has unique ways of working with each one of His children and mine is in my quiet time with Him by keeping a Prayer Journal and through my dreams (more deets on this coming soon!) Most recently, God’s tangibility became known to me in the peace I encountered during my cousin Keisha’s funeral and burial. Don’t get me wrong, I hurt, I cry, I am still grieving. I can’t even imagine the pain my uncle, her siblings and her mom are undergoing now. I can’t even conceive the fact that just recently I received the news of another death on the family. But I know that the way I am managing this moment in my life comes from God and from my own experiences dealing with anxiety. In the midst of confusion, I feel light, I feel harmony, I feel reconciliation. I feel peace.

Last year I learned that I don’t have to see a burning bush, or feel someone literally touching me to feel God. All I have to do is close my eyes, reminisce on the miracles he has done in my life and smell his fragrance around me.

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  1. Great post!!! Sometimes we can’t recognize that God is in everything around us….because we just focus in the bad things!!!

    Keep writing and sharing this posts please!!!

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  2. Tears of joy run down my cheeks. Not tears of sadness but of joy remembering how you would always express in your earlier years, how you would love to write. You never had the chance to, or maybe it just was not your time.
    God often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad of our greatest calling.
    This is your time, Beba. And when you give God all the honor and glory that He and only He deserves, God will open doors that no one could ever close.
    Perhaps this is the moment for which you have been created. Esther4:1
    I will continue to up lift you in prayers.
    Love you, mom.

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  3. Wow, all I can say is that this is so inspiring. You are definitely in the place where God wants you to be at this time. And when you write, you not only bless yourself, you bless us all. Keep writing. May God use you to inspire and bless others through your words. God bless you always. Love you.

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  4. Tú eres brisa suave y caricia de Dios. Convencida que te envió a aquella fria ciudad para que estuvieras a mi lado en el momento más oscuro de mi vida. Te amo querida hijita linda. Siempre pienso en ti.

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